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Turning Over A New Leaf.

Turning Over A New Leaf.

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I’ve had a shift in my mind set recently and I felt the need to pour it out on to my blog so here it is. I’m not sure where this change has come from but I feel like as a creature of habit, it’s definitely taken me by surprise and I’m feeling good for it. It hasn’t really affected one area in my life in particular, it seems to be a spread amongst all areas which has been a breath of fresh air. I’m still trying to figure out what caused this feeling but for now, I’m just rolling with it.

Exercise & Health

I recently had a bit of a personal epiphany around exercise. Despite having tried to follow exercise apps like couch to 5k and having a free onsite gym at work, I just couldn’t make myself fall in love with exercise. I didn’t like the gym environment and never knowing if I’m doing something correctly and moving my body in an efficient way. However, I’ve realised that moving my body in a way that I enjoy is more important than not moving at all. Not exactly ground breaking stuff I know, but it’s been such a shift in my mind that I’ve finally started to exercise more.

I walk to work everyday (I know, I’m lucky) which allows me the time to listen to my podcasts and just breathe and gently keep my body moving the way it should. I’ve also started investing my money into exercise classes that I enjoy doing too. I now do Pilates during Monday lunch times, swimming during Thursday evenings and Yoga during Friday lunch times too. I know there is more I could (and probably should) be doing, but for now this is what is working for me to keep my body happy.

I try not to feel guilty about spending money on these classes, as I enjoy them so much. I also think that I can spare that money for my health as I don’t spend money on cigarettes or drinking, which can add up to be very expensive too… not that I’m bashing anyone who does smoke or drink, it’s just not something that I personally do and therefore have that money spare, if you like.

I’ve also made the decision to start consciously eating less meat. Admittedly, I do find it hard sometimes as Olly and I still live at home and we often come home to dinner ready on the table, which we are so thankful for but it just means that we don’t always have full control over what we eat. We bought our own food for a few weeks and cooked our own meals on the weekends which was really lovely but it isn’t always financially attainable. We’re still working around it and making adjustments where we can so I try to have no meat for my lunch time meal where possible. We’re taking small but definite steps in the right direction, which I guess is all that matters right?

One of the biggest things that has changed for me, is that I’ve really started to care less about my lines and bumps. I don’t hate my body anymore and now I find myself just wanting to help my body by fuelling her with good food and moving frequently. I even bought my first ever bikini which I intend to wear on our holiday in a couple of weeks, and I’m going to feel good in it because I just don’t seem to care. What helps is that Olly is so loving too, he’s always boosting me up with his words and actions that I can’t help but feel good when I’m around him. I’m learning to embrace everything I have to offer to the world and it feels incredibly freeing, hence the new style of photos! Helloooo world.

Anxiety

My anxiety is nowhere near as bad as it used to be, but every so often I do still feel like it’s making my life decisions for me which has caused me to not go for certain opportunities and to say no to things, which I am not okay with. After 9 years of living with anxiety, I’ve made the decision to go to the doctors to be prescribed medication. It’s taken me a long time to finally realise that this is not something to be embarrassed about and that it’s okay to take medication for my mind, especially as I would take other medication for any other issue with no problem. It is okay to ask for help because sometimes we all need a slight boost of a helping hand and it is nothing to be ashamed of. I’m nervous to take this next step but I know that it’s totally normal and it will benefit me in the long run.

If you’re living with anxiety too, please know that it is going to be okay. Talk to someone and get the help that you need and deserve, we’re only human at the end of the day.

HERE is a list of the different mental health helplines, should you or anyone around you need them.

Blog & Instagram

One of the biggest changes in my mind set has been surrounding my blog and my instagram page. I’m not the most consistent person when it comes to either platforms, something of which I used to feel really guilty about. However, I had a bit of a lightbulb moment recently and I realised that I don’t care.

Hear me out, I don’t mean that I don’t care about what I’m putting out online, or that I don’t care about the friendships and brand relationships I’ve made since starting this blog… I just mean that I don’t care if if my instagram photo doesn’t get over 100 likes, I don’t care that my blog isn’t hitting the views it used to, I don’t care that I accidentally go a week or 10 days without posting a photo…because I’m in a place where I feel 100% happy with the photos and posts I’m uploading and I feel as though they really show my personality and no amount of numbers mean that much to me. I’m finding it hard to explain without sounding ungrateful for those who do cheerlead me on from the front and always support me, because I am so grateful to all of those people.

I just want to put my energy and focus into the things that make me happy and make the most sense to me. For example, I LOVE reading posts and watching videos on all different kind of beauty products and make up looks, but considering I barely move away from wearing Glossier everyday, it’s just doesn’t make sense for me to post that kind of content, nor do I really enjoy posting that kind of content. I hope I’m making sense.

The things that I do love however, are the things I want to start putting more energy into my posts. Book reviews, anything stationary related, skincare, illustrations… these are just a few of the things that I want to bring to the blog and to my instagram feed. I’m already finding that I’m happier with my feed and I’ve already got a few ideas ready for my blog too which I’m really looking forward to bringing to life!

Career…or not

Okay, so I still haven’t figured this one out. I’m not sure I’m the type of person to ever have a ‘career’ although I think it would cool to have one. I can’t help but feel like I’m ambitious for the now but not for a career and it’s really frustrating, if I’m honest. I really wish career advice was a thing in school because I could have really benefited from it as I’ve always felt a little lost in life, not really knowing what I’m doing or what I want to do and I’m at a point where I’m starting to feel left behind. I really like my job and the company I work for so much, but I can’t help but feel like everyone else is in their career while I’m just in an entry level job, not necessarily heading on the right path to my dream career either. I’ve always stressed about money and I just can’t help but feel like I’m never going to be at a level where I’m making enough money to start saving for {adult} things like a house because of my feeling lost.

As I said, I’m still trying to work this one out. If anyone has any tips or advice on how to find your ‘thing’ in life, then please do let me know. I would LOVE to hear your suggestions.

This post has been a bit of a ramble but I hope it made sense. I just want to say thank you to those who continue to support and love my content and…well…me. I’m excited to push forward with this new mind set and see where it takes me. Let me know if you have any thoughts on any of the topics, or if you’ve ever felt something like this shift of the mind too. I’d love to hear your thoughts.

F x

My June Goals.

My June Goals.